“Believe in the magic, and you will find it.”
Bonjour my lovelies! I have an apology, which is long overdue. I had promised to get back to blogging as soon I was done with exams, and I didn’t. That was 4 months ago, and I’m sorry. While I have absolutely no excuses, I hope my reasons will at least make you understand my long absence. So here we go : my story.

A few weeks before my exams began, I met this boy. Could see that coming, couldn’t you? What most of you didn’t know is that I was supposed to be spending a year studying in Alicante, starting September. So seeing as how our time was very limited, the relationship was supposed to be no more than a summer fling, however, I knew from the very beginning that it would break my heart to leave. Anyway, we got very close very quickly and before long, fell in love. And that’s pretty much when it happened: worry, anxiety, panic attacks – I couldn’t even stand being alone in the house any more. And all of this came from the prospect of leaving my home, and more importantly my boyfriend, for a whole year. In fact, I came really close to calling the whole “studying abroad” thing off. 

I went on anti-anxiety medication, which just wasn’t working; tried seeing a psychiatrist, but the waiting list was over 3 months long. I complained, and cried, and even had self-harm related thoughts (which I fought off as soon as I got them,) but I knew I had to leave. I had to do it because I’d hate myself if I didn’t even try. 

And so here I am in Alicante, having already survived the first week, giving you my sincerest apology. For all of you who will worry (because I know there will be a few) – I’m doing okay. It’s tough, but my mental health is not too bad, I haven’t had a proper panic attack since coming here, and I should be fine.

On the bright side, I am now able to write and answer your questions about depression, anxiety, and panic attacks, in the hopes that it might help some of you deal with these problems. I will also keep you all updated with my Spain adventures (and troubles, no doubt!)

However, normal programming will resume shortly. I promise. β™₯

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I want to apologise in advance to anyone who reads my blog and is in no way interested in make-up and cosmetics, because that’s exactly what this post is going to be about. So if make-up doesn’t interest you, feel free to just skip this whole post πŸ™‚
Also, before I get started, I want to say that this is not a sponsored post and neither Cosmetics Fairy, nor any other company has asked me/paid me to write this! Not that it would have any impact on what I write anyway.
So with the disclaimers out of the way, let’s crack on…

As someone who is mildly interested in make-up, I’m often on the look-out for new products to try out. And I’m often recommended things or told to look something up, only to find out that it is practically impossible to come by in the UK. One specific brand I have in mind is Wet n Wild. People are always raving about how great their products are, but unfortunately, it’s not something you could find at your local Boots or Superdrug. So with the possible exception of big cities like London, I’d be willing to bet that this brand is not available on a High Street in UK.

However, I recently came across the Cosmetics Fairy website, and it really made my day. Not only do they have a massive selection of products, from relatively unknown to very popular brands, but their prices are also very low. The website has sections such as ‘3 for 2’ and ‘under 99p,’ as well as a loyalty scheme similar to that of Boots, where you collect four points for every pound spent on their website. But most importantly for me, they sell brands that are hard to come by in the UK like, yes you guessed it – Wet n Wild!

As I had never ordered from them before, and I’m gonna admit, their prices seemed a tad too good to be true, I decided to not go overboard and only purchase a few things. And I can tell you right now, the whole transaction was above and beyond what I expected… I placed my order on a Wednesday night, after calculating that it should arrive next Thursday, which was perfect as I’m free all day and could wait around for the delivery. I then had a long weekend at my parents house and when I came back on Sunday, it was already waiting for me at home! And since there’s no post on Sundays, I presume it came on a Saturday – 2 days after placing my order!

The parcel comes filled with little foam pieces, ensuring extra safety for the cosmetics. Each brand of cosmetics is further packaged in separate padded envelopes. So basically as far as safety is concerned, the products are as safe as they possibly could be!

I haven’t had the chance to try out all of the things I ordered, but I was very pleased with the ones I did try, so I’m certain that the rest will live up to the same standard as well! If you would like to see some more detailed posts – product reviews, I guess – I could write them, just keep in mind that I’m not a beauty guru, and any opinions will be quite subjective.

And that’s it, really. I wanted to let you know about this great website that I have absolutely fallen in love with, just in case there’s other people who are frustrated about certain brands being unavailable in your country. And since they ship worldwide, this may just solve your problems πŸ™‚

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Hello, chums!

If you’re from the UK, you’ll probably be aware that the 10th of March, i.e. Mother’s Day is fast approaching! If you’re from a different country of course, then that might not be the case, because your Mother’s Day is the second Sunday of May. But I digress. The point I want to make is that it’s getting difficult to know how to celebrate Mother’s Day. 

Personally, I feel like I can no longer simply buy my mum a teddy bear and get away with it. Firstly, because it feels like cheating. You spend 2 minutes at a shop, pay around Β£5, and you’re sorted. I’m sorry, but that doesn’t quite say “I appreciate my mum” to me, which is after all the whole point of this day. Secondly, I know that even my mum wouldn’t want to get a teddy – not only is it in no way a sentimental gift, it would also probably end up in my sister’s toy box!

So if you’re finding yourself in a similar situation, I may be able to help.
Now obviously, these suggestions will not be for everyone, and will depend on what your mum likes as well as your artistic abilities. So here are my suggestions:
  • Breakfast in bed. It’s a classic, but it’s a nice way to start the day, and really shows that you care. Of course there are a few things to take into consideration… Firstly, observe the time your mum generally wakes up on a Sunday – you don’t want to start her day by waking her up way before she usually would. At the same time, knowing when she wakes up will allow you to time the food/tea/coffee well so that it doesn’t get cold!
  • If you’re artistic – draw something! Draw or paint a nice landscape or a flower arrangement, or maybe even a portrait of your mum, or the whole family! She’s bound to appreciate the time and effort you put into it! I know for sure that this is what my mum prefers on special occasions – me creating something artistic.
  • Make a plushie! Now, you may think that this is pretty much the same as my previous suggestion, but it really doesn’t take a lot of artistic ability. The picture at the top is a little plushie that I made today. It’s extremely simple, and the process is quite relaxing. No sewing required – all you need is some felting wool and a felting needle. I learnt to do it from one of my favourite YouTubers, and I will link you to her video on how to make these cute plushies (hers look way better than mine, by the way!)
  • You could go all out and let her rest for the whole day! That means taking charge of making all the meals, tidying the house, doing laundry – whatever it is that she usually does on a Sunday! I can’t imagine that any mother would not appreciate that… Unless you’re really rubbish at cooking and cleaning!
  • Last but not least – do give her special treatment on the day! Do not forget about it! Even if it’s just saying “Happy Mother’s Day” and handing your mum a bunch of flowers, or a cup of tea – it shows that you remembered!

Good luck with whatever you decide to do, and I’m sure your mum will appreciate your efforts! 
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Hello everyone! I’m sorry I haven’t posted in over a month but truthfully, I just haven’t been feeling creative lately, and as I always say: there’s no point doing something half-heartedly unless it’s absolutely mandatory. Ironically enough, now that I’m overwhelmed with work and metaphorically chained to my bed, I suddenly feel the urge to write my blog, and draw, and paint, and maybe even write a script for a movie or two! Well, maybe not quite.
So as you may have figured out by now, I’m feeling quite poorly. To make matters worse, it seems as if I came down with a cold at the worst possible time – Scotland is clearly experiencing the global warming, what with all this sun that usually comes twice a year; I’ve got nothing but presentations in university this week; and I’m finally feeling creative, but cannot act on it. Great!

And it seems as if a lot of people have fallen victim to this treacherous nightmare, so what I thought I’d do is talk about the things that speed up your recovery and help you kick the cold’s ass.

  • First things first, rest. Now I know everyone always tells you to take a day or two off work, or school, or whatever it is that you do, and take it easy. But we all know it’s not that simple. Nowadays, we lead pretty busy lives and feel like there aren’t enough hours in the day to finish things, so you can’t just drop everything and take a day off. And that’s fair enough – no one can make you drop everything and re-prioritise your day. And I know that because right now, I should probably be sleeping, and yet I’m not because I have so much work to do for the 2 presentations I have in the next two days. I can’t just drop it because my grade depends on it. And worse yet, my whole group’s grade depends on it. So I get it. But at the end of the day, your body repairs itself when you’re sleeping, and by ignoring your need for rest, you’re simply prolonging your illness and suffering. So my advice – rest as much as you can. Think about what could be put off for a couple of days and exchange those tasks for some rest!
  • Secondly – hydration. Hydration is important anyway, but when you’re ill, it’s essential to keep hydrated. When dealing with a cold, hot drinks work best (especially if you’ve got a sore throat,) but try to avoid carbonated drinks, or sugar altogether. Sugary drinks take longer to come into effect, and it’s not like they’re good for you anyway. Go for teas with lemon, or honey, or even medicinal teas like Lemsip Max Cold & Flu lemon drink. Now personally, I absolutely hate it and it makes me feel literally sick while drinking it, but it does work, so I try to suck it up and drink at least one cup a day.
  • Don’t rely on cold & flu medicine. Truth is, it doesn’t really work the way most people think it does. The only reason to use it, is to battle physical pain (i.e. headaches) or to moderate very high temperatures. Just remember that elevated temperature helps your body deal with the germs and infections, so don’t obsess over having regular temperature.
  • Last but not least, eat healthily. I know from experience that illness can lead to not eating anything for days because you don’t feel hungry, but that’s not doing you any favours. Not only is it further damaging your body, you’re also not getting the vitamins that could speed up your recovery! 
So those are the basic tips that I tend to live by, but really, it’s about finding what works for you in the type of lifestyle that you lead!

Hope you’re all well, and I’ll write soon!

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Happy 2013, folks β™₯

Ideally, I would have made this post within the first few days of January, but since I had just begun my blog, there were a couple of posts that just had to come first. But as they say, better late than never, right? So let’s crack on! 
For me, the year 2012 was below average to say the least. It’s not as if there was something fundamentally bad about it, or that something horrible happened: it’s simply that I wasn’t happy with myself or my life and it seemed as if the things that I didn’t like about myself became more prominent and overwhelming. Meanwhile, I appeared to have abandoned the activities which not only balanced out the bad in my life, but also offered me an escape to a better place – even if just for a couple of hours. 

By December 2012, it got too much. The stress, anxiety, and general unhappiness just became too overwhelming and I knew something had to give. 

Now, let me just say that I’m not one of those people who say “New year, new me” every year, okay? I find it to be a ridiculous concept because you don’t need a new year to change something. However, it just so worked out out that New Year was the perfect time to change things. So these are the things on agenda for 2013:

♣ Paint More ♣

Art has always been something I enjoyed immensely, even though I don’t consider myself to be great at it. I had always stuck to pencils as I was absolutely useless at watercolours and so hated them with a passion. However, as limited as I was in only using pencils, I drew frequently, and it was my little Zen time. And for some reason, I completely lost that in 2012 – and I want it back. So even though university gets crazy and I run out of time for recreational activities, I will make more time for art this year. Not only that, but I already got my art stuff out and I made an acrylic painting. Acrylic.You know, as in paint, not pencils! I immediately felt more chipper because this was a big deal to me! I’d had acrylic paint and a canvas for about a year, and it stayed hidden in my wardrobe because I was too scared to use it. And now, I can’t wait to get more supplies and get back to it!

♣ Read More β™£

Reading books has been a huge part of my teenage-hood, and yet again, I have no idea why I gave it up in the first place! I want to blame the university because quite often, it doesn’t leave much time for anything else, but I feel like it would be unfair to put all of the blame on it. Nonetheless, just as with art, I will put aside some time for reading. It may not be quite the same as a few years ago, when I would literally spend 16+ hours a day reading (only having toilet and food breaks, and about 6 hours of sleep) but that’s the best I can do. And in fact, it may be healthier than those 16 hour reading sessions! Also, I bet this will help me a tad with the anxiety and stress. At least the university related ones.

♣ Worry Less β™£

I worry a lot. I mean, really! And about such trivial things as well! And the worst part is that I let it get in the way of the things I want to do, people I want to meet or talk to, and it knocks my confidence way down – as if I had any to spare! It has been a huge problem for me for as long as I can remember, and I always made the mistake of thinking that there’s nothing I can do about it – it’s just a part of me. And that’s somewhat true – it is a part of me. Nonetheless, it doesn’t mean there’s nothing I can do about it. So from now on, when I’m worrying about something petty, or something I have no control over, I’ll stop and try to remind myself that there is no point is stressing over this. Hopefully, this will open the doors to more opportunities for me, as well as make it easier to write my blog and create YouTube videos.
♣ Be Healthier β™£

Last but not least, I’m planning to be a bit healthier this year. I’ve set a similar goal for myself many times before and it never worked out, but I realise that my “health” related goals were too unrealistic, and demanded too much of a change from my regular routine. Luckily, I’m not extremely unhealthy as it is – I’m not overweight, I don’t eat too much junk food – many people often question my desire for a healthier lifestyle. However, there are a few small changes I want to make:

  • Exercise more – it’s no secret that regular exercise makes you happier. And that’s the key – regular exercise. Because I do exercise, and have done for a while, but I always took the concept of exercise very lightly, and so, would only do it when I felt like it. Which basically resulted in a week of pushing myself (doing exercise every day for at least an hour) and then not doing it again for about 2 or 3 weeks because I was too busy/didn’t have time/didn’t feel like it. Pathetic. I’m going to try and get into a routine of doing exercise 3 times a week no matter what (unless I’m in like hospital or something!) to begin with.
  • Drink more water – I’m really bad at that. Honestly, I barely drink any water at all! And this isn’t exactly an attractive proposition because I don’t fancy spending half of my day in the bathroom. Nonetheless, I feel like it must be done. Luckily, I drink absolutely loads of tea, so for starters, I can drink more healthy teas (green, camomile, white) and that will already be a huge step forwards. Besides that, I will start drinking more water in university, as opposed to my standard order of Caramel Macchiato (which is absolute heaven, by the way.) This will again be a massive step forwards because you wouldn’t believe the amount of Caramel Macchiatos I drink at uni. The girl who takes my order doesn’t even listen to me anymore! As soon as she sees me in the queue, she knows what to make. One time, I ordered a Latte, and she literally repeated my order back to me in a shocked voice. 
  • Eat healthier snacks – if I’m spending the day at home, I snack quite a lot during the day, so I think it would make a big difference if I replaced the crisps, sweets, popcorn, and whatever else I eat with fruit and vegetables. Especially since I’m a huge fan of fruit and veg as it is! I’m not saying I’m cutting these things out of my life completely, but if I ate fruit and veg instead of the sweets at least half of the time, it’d be great. So from now on, I’m going to stock up on more carrot sticks and fruits! 

And that’s it! It doesn’t seem like a lot, and honestly, all of these things are quite basic and  realistically, very achievable. But despite their simplicity, they should improve my life immensely and I hope to make this year immeasurably better than 2012! And I hope that all of you have a great year too!

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